Afterall Its Just A Memory

After late night yesterday, I woke up and feel devastated. You told me that you love her. Me, well after a year and half, you literally choose her instead of me. For reasons that are not promising you to be happy ever after, for reasons that may fade, that will not guarantee you love like I gave to you, you are blinded and lead you to choose her. I couldn't believe this is happening to me. To US. I have done million things to pledge my allegiance to you. Swear to love you till my dying day. You promised to change. You promised me to love me just the way I am. But you screwed it. You betrayed it. Why you must put a boundary there for me in order to get you back. Why there must be a silly settlement that I must obey to get you back? Don't you see it that I don't need those trivial and silly conditions to love you. It just happens through my heart. Money could not buy my love. You should be grateful cause I don't ask you a thing to be back with me. You should be grateful cause I could manage all those craps and mess with you. All your temptation and anger, I manage to cope it. I don't care if you're bad, I just love you just the way you are. But you never trust me. You never try to understand me and hear my pain that I've been suffering all these years. There's something that I can't confess cause I know you will blow out. I'm scared of losing you but I'm scared I'm dying because of you too. Why you never love as sincere as you can? Why? All these years, can't you see that I'm the one who give you a lot to remember, but you forget about that,dear. You just wash it all from your mind and let me suffer.