Its The Matter of You

Okay where should I start? hemmm, begins with my busy and super in hell life. Exams is like shit. Just almost that big day. But yeah, I haven't start anything on my bloody pathetic thick book. There's no way I must smell that sheets of paper. I must score but I don't know why I'm still like go to hell you big asshole book. I don't know why am I so reluctant to have a glance at that book. hahaha. Whatever. Yesterday, I had a fight with him. I was so intense and yet too much bottled up my feelings. I couldn't suck it up all again so I decided to let all my feelings,anger and temptations to him. Bloody idiot but yet I felt so relieved. And now I have to figure out to mend his heart back. Okay this is my bad. I had to apologize to him like for zillion times. Begging for him not to leave. I am too fell in with him. Its like you already fall into deep down hole and there's no such way to pull yourself back out. you couldn't pull yourself as you were already drowned in that hole. That's what I feel about love with him. I had him for 1 year and a half. I'm too get used with all the craps that we had done. The person he was before. And the best part is I literally mend his heart. I'll not lie, I learned the hard way to indulge into his feelings. Be apart of his life and lastly be with him in every single shit that comes along. Through the ups and downs. I always love him like I'm dying tomorrow. Dear baby boy, the coarse of true love never run that smooth. And being with you is the most amazing feelings ever known to mankind. I give you my word to be with you till my last day. As long as my breathe is here, I am remotely happy to sit with you in every second of time machine. Cause you should know this, everything's happened in the past and what happens right now worth all the fights.Softly whispering to you... " I love you "