Okay I don't know where to start.

Again woke up late which at 11 am and took my shower.

Looking back into the mirror and looked how ugly i am.

goshhh, i had to sth. I don't want him to see me like this.

Cut my fingernails, blow my hair and put on a little bit of lipbalm

And now I don't look pale anymore.

I am bloody bored right now. 

Felt like a horrible mass sitting here in my heart and won't let go.

I've got nothing else to do unless called him for zillion times

and online till i get bored again, eat, sleep and watch tv.

How terrible is that?

And in the meantime my ass is terribly getting bigger right now.

haaa, I wish to do sth useful.

sth that worth my life and sth that I could earn money

And I won't put more burden on my parents anymore.